| I'm 17 years old and I've been exploring my rumspringa for the last year and a half. |
| Most of the teenagers enter the church after their rumspringa. |
| The problem is, I can't tell what's okay as part of rumspringa and what is illegal in the outside world. |
| Only one of them, my oldest brother, Michael, chose not to return to the church after his rumspringa. |
| I know what that means because my brother wrote me a letter when I started my rumspringa and it was filled with words I should know. |
| They ask if I've been drinking and I say yes because it's well known in the township that during rumspringa you can drink. |
